Hello my friends!
I am alive...barely, but alive.
On the 23rd of November my husband of 17 years left me. He decided he didnt love me anymore. At 1st I felt like he was just confused and needed time. I tried to give him time , but I missed him so much and I'm afraid I did a pitiful job of it, but I tried. The hours turned to days and the days turned to weeks and now almost 4 months later, we are getting a divorce. I am still in shock and the pain is almost unbearable. I am trying to survive, but thats about all im doing. I still have Whitney, Jessie, Noah , Ricky and little Rudy..., alot of responsibility, and seemingly, no strength, but GOD, who is rich in mercy, is carrying me through.
Most days I wake up and go through the motions, but I am numb and my heart beats like its gonna pound out of my chest.
Rudy always said "divorce is not an option" and "we'll be together forever", but I guess his way of thinking has changed.
Thank you guys for your prayers, please continue to pray for me and pray for my precious Rudy.